Monthly Archives: December 2014

Weight: 140 lbs Attire: Most of day: green pants, sheer blue shirt, breast forms. New Years Party: Purple patterned tights, black and white panties, scalloped skirt, same top. Resting Heart Rate: Higher than usual Food and Medicine Intake: Cheese, crackers, broccoli, General Tso’s Tofu, 3 shots tequila with salt and lime, 1 shot good gin, […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: Sheer blue shirt, cargo pants, bra, doc martens, the usual outergarments Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Entirely crap Dream: Don’t remember. # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 2 # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 2 What Have You Done to Become Better Today? Fixed a sewing machine, […]

Weight: 142 lbs Attire: Black jeans, red velour haltertop (yes, it worked) Resting Heart Rate: 52 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Veggie burger with fries, macaroni and cheese, that’s it. Dream: Don’t remember. Logistical. # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 2. # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: A couple upon waking up. What Have You […]

Weight: 142 lbs Attire: Purple shirt, black flowy pants, boots, the usual. Resting Heart Rate: Who even cares? Food and Medicine Intake: Half a bagel, some pasta, crackers and cheese, carrots and peanut butter, chocolate Dream: I found that I had more money than I thought I did. I was sad to wake up. # […]

Weight: 143.6 lbs Attire: Floral patterned skirt, black leggings, black boots, red scalloped shirt, bra with breast forms. Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Macaroni and cheese, cranberry raspberry juice, diet coke, zucchini lasagna, gin martini, red wine, crime brûlée. Dream: Another love dream: kissing a bitch girl in the stairwell of […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Patched jeans, black leggings, black underwear, black Doc Martens, brown flowy shirt, bra with breast forms. Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Seltzer, cheetos, homemade pizza, snow peas, cranberry juice Dream: Athletic, clothed foreplay with a woman I used to work with. # of Times Misgendered + Comments: […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Most of the day: brown sweatpants, [redacted] t-shirt, bra with forms, black underwear. During dinner: black skirt and purple shirt replacing shirt and pants. Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: 400 mg of ibuprofen, scrambled eggs, english muffin, chocolate, salad, cheese souffle, snap peas, peppermint bark. Dream: Incest. […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Flowy black pants, bright hippie shirt, bra with forms, black underwear. Resting Heart Rate: 88 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Some tortilla chips, vegetables in fondue, fruit in fondue. Dream: Gone # of Times Misgendered + Comments: A lot. Probably 10-12. # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: None What Have You […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Sweatshirt sweatpants motherfucker Resting Heart Rate: Who gives a flying fuck Food and Medicine Intake: Some fucking lasagna, some fucking macaroni, some fucking green beans, some fucking cranberry juice Dream: Gone # of Times Misgendered + Comments: A bunch. I still can’t correct them. # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: Not […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Patched pants, nice purple shirt, the works Resting Heart Rate: Who even cares? Food and Medicine Intake: Wheat chex for breakfast, alfredo for lunch, grilled cheese and fries and milkshake for dinner. Dream: My parents had a son, who was growing prodigiously (walking at 2 days old!). We sat on the […]

Weight: No scale Attire: [redacted] t-shirt, black fleece leggings, black skirt, red converse, red bra with breastforms, hoodie sweatshirt, black felt jacket Resting Heart Rate: 64 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Everything bagel with cream cheese, handful of chex mix, cranberry/raspberry juice, tofu, broccoli, rice, doritos, skittles, cream soda, water, popcorn, nuts. Dream: Gone except […]

Weight: No Scale Attire: blue jeans, pink shirt, the usual Resting Heart Rate: 60 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: One cetirizine hydrochloride tablet (allergy med), fried eggs and toast and cranberry juice, popcorn, cheese souffle (sp?), biscuits with cheese and honey, asparagus, chocolate milkshake, merlot. Dream: Outside of Buxton. A great monster, like a giant […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Blue pigeon shirt, bra with forms, black soft leggings, black skirt with embroidery, hoodie, jacket, converse. Resting Heart Rate: 64 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Eclectic: midnight snack of cheese crackers and coke, leftover pasta for lunch but not much of it, bowl of wheat chex for dinner, some cheese doodles, […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Patched jeans, red converse, blue shirt with pigeon, red bra with breastforms, hoodie, black felt jacket. Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Cheese and pasta, mostly. One cetirizine hydrochloride tablet. Dream: I am at the old cabin at camp, on R. C.’s porch. I let the family rabbit […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Sweatpants, hoodie (no leaving the house) Resting Heart Rate: 96 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Bunch of crap Dream: Me and N have a new apartment in a large brick building by the water. Twice, we harbor attractive young white females on the run from stalkers or abusive partners. The first […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Same as yesterday Resting Heart Rate: 60 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: The other half of that weird donut, fancy salad, fancy smoothie, stuffed shells, some cheese-its, apple cider Dream: Wonderful # of Times Misgendered + Comments: Once by taxi-driver, carefully avoided by mother. # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: One […]

Weight: I have no scale Attire: Fun black flowy pants, red Converse, brown flowy shirt, red bra, hoodie, jacket. Resting Heart Rate: 84 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: A startling amount of dairy today: cheese and crackers, milk, homemade macaroni and cheese, malai kofta, naan, mango lassi, that crispy appetizer they sometimes serve in indian […]

Weight: 142 lbs Attire: green pants, leggings, converse, bra, yellow shirt Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: bagel with cream cheese, peanuts, apple, naked smoothie, cheese curls, beer, macaroni and cheese, milk Dream: gone # of Times Misgendered + Comments: once # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 7, approximately, but i feel […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: Dark grey yoga pants, black leggings, red bra with breast-forms, black wife-beater (ew), black Neutral Milk Hotel t-shirt, blue sweater-hoodie, black felt coat. Resting Heart Rate: 52 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Bananas, peanut butter, pasta, pizza, potatoes, beer. Dream: I was in Tuscany, looking at impossible towns with red skyscrapers, […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: Black skirt with gold designs, black leggings, black dress shoes, red bra with breast forms, white and black striped underwear, sheer blue long-sleeved shirt, blue hoodie sweatshirt, black felt coat Resting Heart Rate: 64 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Raspberries, popcorn, lemonade, pasta, chips. Dream: Gone # of Times Misgendered + […]

Weight: 144 lbs Attire: Red converse, patched blue jeans, pink underwear, red bra with breast forms, sheer blue long-sleeved shirt, sweater hoodie, black felt coat. Resting Heart Rate: Unknown Food and Medicine Intake: Bagel with cream cheese, popcorn, naked blueberry smoothie, pizza, mango snapple, potato chips, carrots and peanut butter. Dream: Gone # of Times […]

Weight: 141 lbs Attire: Sweatshirt and jeans Resting Heart Rate: 76 lbs Food and Medicine Intake: Junk Dream: Don’t remember # of Times Misgendered + Comments: None # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: None What Have You Done to Become Better Today? I’m great at jungling in LoL Other Comments: Strange, dead day. Have You […]

Weight: 140 lbs Attire: Sweatpants sweatshirt Resting Heart Rate: 88 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Almost literally nothing Dream: In a small contained forest, with ceilings and walls. I realize the extent to which my life is controlled. # of Times Misgendered + Comments: None # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: None What Have You […]

Weight: 141 lbs Attire: Grey yoga pants, black leggings, white underwear, red bra with breast forms, ripped Explosions In The Sky t-shirt, blue sweater hoodie Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Pasta, banana, black bean burger, fried potatoes, milk, pink lemonade with seltzer, peanut butter, two large swigs of run straight from […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: Brown sweatpants, white shirt with “COPE” written on it, bra with breast forms, felt coat. Resting Heart Rate: 68 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: rice, pasta, snapeas, chocolate Dream: There is something under the skin of my wrists. I am scratching at a pimple and I scratch out a small root. […]

Weight: 144lbs Attire: Most of day I wore sweatshirt and sweatpants, because I spent the day inside working on music composition. When I went to the concert, I wore a grey dress, gold fisnets over purple tights, black heels, blue sweater hoodie, black peacoat, blue scarf around my neck, black and gold scarf around my […]

Weight: 148 lbs Attire: black jeans, black leggings, red converse, red bra with breast forms, semi-sheer long-sleeved blue shirt, blue sweater hoodie, blue scarf, black felt coat Resting Heart Rate: 64 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Fuck you Dream: Many parts. I remember losing to M in a high-stakes video game. I remember an empty […]

Weight: 142 lbs Attire: sweatpants, sweatshirt Resting Heart Rate: 56bpm Food and Medicine Intake: cheese, pasta, crackers, water Dream: Gone # of Times Misgendered + Comments: None; I didn’t leave the house. # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 4. Pretty intense images of handguns into my brain What Have You Done to Become Better Today? […]

Weight: 146 lbs Attire: Red Converse, red bra with breast forms, pink panties, blue leggings under green cargo pants, red haltertop, blue sweater hoodie, blue scarf, black felt coat. Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: 3 swigs of whiskey, chocolate granola bar, sour cream and onion potato chips, Fettuccine Alfredo with peas […]

Weight: 144 lbs Attire: Red Converse, blue leggings, long floral skirt, black-and-white-striped backless shirt, red bra with breast forms, blue sweater hoodie, black felt coat. Resting Heart Rate: 88 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Rice crackers with pomegranate jelly, apple, cashews, bagel with cream cheese, lemonade, cheese pizza, garlic bread, Sprite Dream: Gone. Something about […]

Weight: 144 lbs Attire: Green cargo pants, Russian eagle t-shirt, red bra with breast forms, blue hoodie, wool coat, red converse with socks. For meeting, black and white backless shirt, multicolored patterned skirt, purple patterned leggings. Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Two off-brand ibuprofen, whole wheat bagel with cream cheese, pasta […]