Monthly Archives: January 2015
Weight: 142 lbs Attire: pigeon shirt, black pants, swarthmore sweatshirt. Very butch, made me feel strange Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Bagel with cream cheese, coffee roll, pizza, trail mix, smoked almonds, tortilla chips, root beer Dream: Gone # of Times Misgendered + Comments: Once by barista # of Suicidal Thoughts […]
Weight: I don’t know Attire: Backless striped shirt, black skirt, bra, warmthwear Resting Heart Rate: TOO DRUNK Food and Medicine Intake: Minimal: some trail mix, some cheese curls, anise and whisky. Dream: Don’t remember # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 2 by a boss I ran into on the street (I corrected him), a bunch […]
Weight: 142 Attire: Pink hippie shirt, black flowy pants, leggings, panties, bra, sweater, jacket. Resting Heart Rate: More than 0, probably Food and Medicine Intake: Pasta and almonds and ginger ale and milk and apple and peanut butter and peas and corn. Dream: Outside an art museum I think, talking to my sister, I ask […]
Weight: 143 Attire: patched pants, pink shirt, normal underthings, normal overthings Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: pasta with parmesan, popcorn, smoked almond, reeses Dream: Don’t remember # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0 # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 1 What Have You Done to Become Better Today? I don’t remember. […]
Weight: 143 lbs Attire: red shirt blue jeans red bra all style Resting Heart Rate: 68 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Tofu and kale (leftover), rice/beans/cheese/salsa/goldfish/tortilla chip monstrosity, cranberry seltzer lemonade monstrosity, some weirdo vitamin water knockoff, twizzlers, peanut-butter-filled pretzals Dream: I recall being in a bedroom with J and another person. Telling J I […]
Weight: 146 lbs Attire: Black jeans, fleece leggings, black panties, bra, yellow 3/4 sleeve shirt, outerwear, [redacted] shirt during play I was doing follow-spot for, as run blacks Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: cashews, bagel with cream cheese and peanut butter, banana, naked juice, salt and vinegar potato chips, cheese doodles, […]
Weight: 141 lbs Attire: Same as yesterday: [redacted] shirt, patched jeans, fleece leggings, bra. Resting Heart Rate: 68 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Bagel with cream cheese, frozen waffles with syrup, cheese pizza, cream soda. Dream: I found a job that I was actually qualified for, and I was going to get it. # of […]
Weight: 144 lbs Attire: Most of day: patched blue jeans, red converse, fleece leggings, [redacted] t-shirt, outergarments of usual, then black and white-striped underwear, bra with forms. During performance of This Damned Body Is Breathing Beside You, same underwear under sheer black shift. Resting Heart Rate: 100 bpm (not really resting) Food and Medicine Intake: […]
Weight: Something Attire: Black leggings, black and gold wrap, red scalloped shirt, bra, etc Resting Heart Rate: Something else Food and Medicine Intake: Pasta with cheese, omelette with sweet peas, glass of merlot, 4 shots of anise liquor. Dream: In a house, like F&M’s house in San Diego. I’ve just moved in. It’s messy. My […]
Weight: 145.8 Attire: Sheer blue shirt, bra, black leggings, black and gold skirt, docs, outerwear Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Soft pretzals, cream soda, pasta with cheese, rice and beans, milk, cookies. Dream: In a large classroom building. I am reconnecting with my old classmates from high school. They aggressively misgender […]
Weight: No scale Attire: black jeans, COPE shirt, blue leggings, underwear, bra with forms, doc martens, sweater-hoodie, black felt jacket Resting Heart Rate: 68 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: bagel with cream cheese, yogurt, kiwi, banana with peanut butter, pirate’s booty, lemonade Dream: Sleep paralysis on the couch: trying to ask people what time it […]
Weight: 142 lbs Attire: pajamas again, bitches Resting Heart Rate: 68 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Omelette and toast, sag paneer with rice, cookie Dream: No memory, basically didn’t sleep # of Times Misgendered + Comments: Didn’t leave the house # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 4 What Have You Done to Become Better Today? […]
Weight: WHO THE FUCK GIVES A FUCKING SHIT Attire: PAJAMAS AND A SWEATER BECAUSE I DIDN’T LEAVE THE HOUSE Resting Heart Rate: I’M TIRED Food and Medicine Intake: BOWL OF CEREAL, BANANA, RICE & BEANS, PASTA, CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES, TWO BRAN-ROLLS WITH CHEESE AND HONEY LAST NIGHT AFTER ANSWERING QUESTIONS Dream: I REMEMBERED IT BUT […]
Weight: 142 lbs Attire: Backless black and white shirt, bra, flowy black pants, docs, purple panties, sweater, jacket. Briefly, a black nightgown. Resting Heart Rate: 64 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Cashews, leftover tofu and kale Dream: Spent a lot of time figuring out the exact rules to a game, which was gone immediately upon […]
Weight: No scale Attire: Long black skirt, hippie shirt, jacket, sweater, bra, sometimes leggings, docs Resting Heart Rate: 68 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: bagel with peanut butter and milk, piece of pizza, kale with garlic, onions, chickpeas, and pine nuts, mashed cauliflower with carrots Dream: No memory # of Times Misgendered + Comments: Today, […]
Weight: 141 lbs (fixed the scale?) Attire: Same as yesterday Resting Heart Rate: 68 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: a couple of bites of someone else’s macaroni and cheese, tofu with kale, bran rolls with honey and cheese, a bit of chocolate-chip coookie batter, apple, and cashews. Dream: Don’t remember # of Times Misgendered + […]
Weight: 152 lbs? Attire: black jeans, docs, blue leggings, bra, red haltertop, sweater, jacket. Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Cheese and pea omelette with toast, naked juice, cliff bars, cheese curls, pancakes, rum, whisky Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 2 # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: One What […]
Weight: My scale says 155, but that can’t be right. Attire: Fleece leggings, doc martens, grey and black flowery shirt, blue shirt with pigeon, bra with forms, sweater-hoodie, peacoat. Resting Heart Rate: 68 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: popcorn, pasta with cheese, naked juice, licorice, ginger ale. Dream: I remember, in a sunny room, watching […]
Weight: 140 lbs Attire: Most of day: thin grey pajama pants, no underwear, purple camisole. Later in day: purple leggings, black and gold sarong-thing, blue shirt with pigeon. Going to theater: purple leggings, brown panties, long black skirt, hippie pink shirt, doc martens, peacoat. Right now: brown panties, brown slip. Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm […]
Weight: 146 lbs Attire: Pink longsleeved shirt, cargo pants, docs, bra, sweater, jacket. Resting Heart Rate: 64 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: frozen waffles with syrup, popcorn, pasta, oreo, cranberry juice, rum, whisky Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 4 # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 1 What Have You Done to Become […]
Weight: No scale Attire: Black patterned skirt, red scallopy top with laces, bra, leggings, boots, sweater-hoodie, felt jacket. Resting Heart Rate: 60 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Raisin-nut toast with peanut butter, pasta with cheese, omelet with peas and cheese, toast, kiwi, multivitamin. Dream: Spent too much time lying awake thinking about money to dream. […]
Weight: no scale Attire: Cut Explosions shirt, blue and night orange patterned skirt, leggings, bra, boots, sweater, jacket. Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Terrible: soba with pasta sauce and cheese, Cinnabon, of all things, Pizza Hut pizza, fries, Carlo Rossi Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 1 # of […]
Weight: No scale Attire: red sheer top, flowy black pants, things for warmth, breasts, makeup. Resting Heart Rate: 64 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: chips and salsa, fried rice with tofu, candy, sake Dream: I remember wanting to forget, and hanging lighting equipment on strands of human hair. # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 2. […]
Weight: No scale Attire: Striped backless shirt, black skirt, my usual outerwear, underpants, fleece leggings. Resting Heart Rate: 68 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Leftover alfredo with peas, banana, apple, cheeze-its, mango snapple, tofu with kale, cranberry juice, lemon sorbet. Dream: Many layers, and I don’t come off well. In Nana’s basement, before Christmas. I […]
Weight: Fucking drunk! Attire: Nothing motherfuckers! Resting Heart Rate: I don’t have a breathalyzer Food and Medicine Intake: RUM! Also GIN! Also cereal, falafel, and alfredo. Dream: I woke up with a vague feeling that I am most alive when I am asleep, but it faded with the sunrise. # of Times Misgendered + Comments: […]
Weight: 145 lbs Attire: cargo pants, leggings, underwear, bra, undershirt, long-sleeved shirt, hoodie, jacket, doc martens/p> Resting Heart Rate: 68bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Pasta with cheese, cranberry juice, cornbread, naked juice, chipotle burrito bowl, red licorice, crackers and cheese, rum. Dream: Absurdly complex, and in reflection, absurd. I’m riding a bus with a girl […]
Weight: The same Attire: Patched jeans and yellow shirt Resting Heart Rate: The same Food and Medicine Intake: Bowl of oat cereal flavored with vanilla and almond, apple, cornbread, sugar cookie, naked juice, smartfood, boca fake chicken patties with ketchup, cheese and crackers, cranberry juice Dream: Didn’t sleep enough to dream. # of Times Misgendered […]
Weight: 143 lbs Attire: grey sweatpants, COPE t-shirt. When it got colder in the day, added leggins and hoodie-sweater Resting Heart Rate: 60 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Apple, buttermilk pancakes with maple syrup, leftover General Tso’s tofu, pasta with cheese, green peas and corn, raspberries, milk, cranberry/raspberry juice. Dream: I only remember desiring to […]
Weight: 145 lbs Attire: Brown flowy shirt, patched jeans, black doc martens, bra with forms, beige panties, black coat, blue scarf Resting Heart Rate: 60 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Grilled cheese with fries and a root beer, pasta with cheese, apple, milk, cornbread. Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 1 # of […]
Weight: 143 lbs Attire: Red shear-ish shirt with the fun sleaves, black skirt with gold and red patterns Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Kale and chickpea wrap, black bean burger with bleu cheese and fries, two glasses of beer, bourbon cheesecake, Reese’s egg. Dream: Full of complicated argument and great anger, […]
Weight: My scale is packed away somewhere amidst the swarms of boxes. Attire: black and white striped backless shirt, green pants, leggings, bra with breast forms, black doc martens, blue sweater-hoodie, black felt jacket Resting Heart Rate: 64 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: McDonalds breakfast platter (pancakes, hash brown, eggs, biscuit), Wawa macaroni and cheese, […]