Monthly Archives: March 2015

Weight: 142 lbs Attire: black leggings, black bra, red converse, green dress, green jacket Resting Heart Rate: 74 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: pizza and breadsticks and rice and cheese and soy fake chicken and anise liquor and 100mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0 # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: most of the day, black tank top, black bra, pink sweatpants, converse Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: nachos, lemonade, bread, peanut butter, pirate’s booty, candy, 100mg spironolactone Dream: I merely remembered that i remembered it, not what it was # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0, but […]

Weight: 143 lbs Attire: patched jeans, sheer blue shirt, black bra, converse, black felt coat Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: cinnabon! popcorn, crackers, beer, hummus and pita and tomato and cucumber, 100mg spironolactone Dream: traveling, taking a wrong turn into a small town and get our car trapped on too small […]

Weight: 1440 lbs Attire: black leggings, doc martens. For rehearsal, explosions in the sky tshirt, red bra and blue skirt, for burlesque show, black bra and black dress. Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Some pasta, apple, banana, milk too much beer, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: mostly pajamas today Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: crackers and cheese and pasta and tomato sauce and jelly beans and 100mg spironolactone and 40mg estrogen Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0 # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 0 What Have You Done to Become […]

Weight: 139 lbs Attire: pajamas Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Negative. Threw up all morning (every twenty minutes or so), eventually ate some pasta and peas and corn. 50mg spironolactone (skipped the morning pill because of all the vomiting) Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0, didn’t leave the […]

Weight: 144 lbs Attire: jeans and tight pink shirt and red bra and doc martens and sweater and jacket Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Apple, fake chicken sandwich with vegetables, some snacks, pasta, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Strange and fast, my friend Rufus from high school was dying, and I was doing […]

Weight: 144 lbs Attire: jeans, pigeon shirt, bra, sweater, felt jacket, converse Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Very little. Some pretzels, some apples, some popcorn, some cream soda, some lemonade, some pasta. 100mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0, but I’m still not sure about being called […]

Weight: 148 lbs Attire: black skirt, purple shirt, other stuff Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Some pizza, some some smoothies, some macaroni, apples, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 8 (played MTG, so what can you do) # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 4 What Have You […]

Weight: 142 lbs Attire: pajamas Resting Heart Rate: 76 Food and Medicine Intake: Far too much rum, just so much rum. 100mg spironolactone Dream: Ooh, complex. My family and Naia were at a very important event, like a rally for a presidential candidate. We were very elegantly dressed. It was in a hotel. My father […]

Weight: 141 lbs Attire: blue skinny jeans, purple low-cut shirt, red cardigan, green jacket, black bra, black panties, doc martens, black felt duster Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: bagel with cream cheese, pasta, broccoli, popcorn, 100mg spironolactone Dream: forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0 # of Suicidal Thoughts + […]

Weight: 142 lbs Attire: Mostly pajamas, but in the evening, foley black pants and float brown shirt and bra to meet a friend. Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Sesame noodles, Kung pow tofu, beer, popcorn, pretzels, 100mg spironolactone Dream: so I’m a criminal, doing some sort of drug deal, with my […]

Weight: 143 lbs Attire: Pajamas most of the day, then tie-die shirt, black jeans, black bra, doc martens, black felt coat Resting Heart Rate: FUCK YOU Food and Medicine Intake: Pasta and apples and bananas and potatoes and milk and 100mg spironolactone. Dream: Graduation? Some ceremony. We are outside, I think my mother is officiating, […]

Weight: 144 lbs Attire: Pajamas Resting Heart Rate: I haven’t been giving a shit about this question recently. Huh. Food and Medicine Intake: Not much, pasta, apples, bananas, some chips/cheese-doodles, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0 # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 0 What Have You Done to Become Better […]

Weight: 144 lbs Attire: faded blue jeans, red converse, black tshirt, green jacket Resting Heart Rate: Didn’t check Food and Medicine Intake: Nothing good; too embarrassed to even write it down Dream: A normal workday, working at a theater (which was called Brown Ledge but wasn’t). Minutes before work was going to be over, I […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: pajamas Resting Heart Rate: 88 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: pizza, rice, pasta, cheese, milk, 100mg spironolactone Dream: I am powerful. I realize I can fly, so I do. I fly around the city. I find the house that I “used to live in” (is this the home I felt that […]

Weight: 146 lbs Attire: brown sweatpants, explosions in the sky tshirt, black felt jacket, black bra, doc martens Resting Heart Rate: Fast. Somewhere over 100bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Oat cereal, croissant, hot chocolate, popcorn, pizza, peas, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Goddammit I remembered this one, I need to do this part in the mornings # […]

Weight: 148 lbs Attire: Ripped explosions in the sky tshirt, purple skirt, purple patterned fishnet-things, then changed into flower-embroidered jeans, green jacket, then black jacket, then at a party, pretty black dress with flowers. Also black bra and doc martens. Resting Heart Rate: Oh, something, I suppose Food and Medicine Intake: Rice, beans, cheese, then […]

Weight: 141 lbs Attire: COPE shirt, brown sweats Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Pasta with tomatoes, cornbread, fake chicken thing, rice with beans and cheese, milk, rum, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten but vivid # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0 (didn’t leave the house) # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 0 […]

Weight: 140 lbs Attire: black tank top, black skinny jeans, black felt jacket Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Apples, rice and beans, nachos, beer, pasta, crackers and cheese, rum, 100mg spironolactone orally, 40mg estrogen injected Dream: New pet, a possum, which I carry into the house after it escapes, at it […]

Weight: 138 lbs Attire: light jeans, purple leggings, nice black shirt, red bra, doc martens, sweater-hoodie Resting Heart Rate: Strangely high. 134 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Crackers and cheese, pasta and tomatoes, apple, wine, milk, cornbread, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Another actor’s nightmare # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0 # of Suicidal Thoughts + […]

Weight: 144 lbs Attire: same pants as yesterday, white and yellow shirt, green jacket, black bra (new!) with forms, doc martens. Resting Heart Rate: 68 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Leftover pasta, french fries, lemonade, some candy, masaman (sp?) curry, milk, apple, 100mg spironolactone. Dream: Oh, I remembered this… Damn it. # of Times Misgendered […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: Flower-embroidered skinny jeans, pink button-shirt, blue sweater, green jacket, red bra with forms, doc martens. Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Cheese grits, a bit of croissant, macaroni and cheese, wine, soon beer, some free samples of cheese and chocolate from some hipster paradise, 100mg spironolactone, and soon […]

Weight: No scale Attire: leggings, black and gold wrap/sarong thing, red scalloped shirt, green jacket, peacoat, later underwear and sheer nightgown Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Rice and beans, black bean burger with fries and root beer, lemonade, cheez-its, chips and salsa, birthday cake, tea with brandy and whisky, wine, 100 […]

Weight: 144 lbs Attire: Pink velour pants, red velour haltertop. AKA the prettiest princess (no bra today, felt strange, but it was drying) Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: cornbread, apple, milk, pasta with vodka sauce, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0 # of Suicidal Thoughts + […]

Weight: 141 lbs Attire: Pajamas because day off! Resting Heart Rate: Who gives a fart? Food and Medicine Intake: Rice and beans, shitty beer, cornbread, cranberry juice, 100 mg spironolactone. Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: Once when I went to the store. # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 1 What Have You […]

Weight: 142 lbs Attire: black skinny jeans, black leggings, purple shirt, green canvas jacket, peacoat. Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Corn muffin, sesame sticks, some candy, pasta, popcorn, apples, an irresponsible amount of rum for a thursday, 100mg of spironolactone Dream: Gone # of Times Misgendered + Comments: Oh, a couple […]

Weight: 141 lbs Attire: Ripped jeans, fleece leggings, doc martens, pink hippie shirt, hoodie sweater, peacoat Resting Heart Rate: Didn’t check. Food and Medicine Intake: Donut, bagel with cream cheese, candy, falafel sandwhich, kefir, fake chicken, shot of rum, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Lost # of Times Misgendered + Comments: At least 15. I lost count. […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: Green dress, black leggings, doc martens, hooded duster. During rehearsal, ripped white t, or naked. Resting Heart Rate: Too exhausted to check Food and Medicine Intake: A grilled cheese and a milkshake from Friendly’s, and 100mg of spirolactone. Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: Just, so many times by […]

Weight: Where is joy? Attire: Where is joy? Resting Heart Rate: Where is joy? Food and Medicine Intake: Where is joy? Dream: Where is joy? # of Times Misgendered + Comments: Where is joy? # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: Where is joy? What Have You Done to Become Better Today? Where is joy? Other […]