Monthly Archives: April 2015

Weight: No scale Attire: black and white backless shirt and green pants and black bra and flip flops Resting Heart Rate: Didn’t even do it. Food and Medicine Intake: pasta and nuts and peanut butter and crackers and chips and 100mg spironolactone Dream: forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 1 # of Suicidal Thoughts […]

Weight: No memory Attire: No memory Resting Heart Rate: No memory Food and Medicine Intake: No memory Dream: I mainly just remember shitting a lot. Like, so much more shit than should fit into my body. # of Times Misgendered + Comments: No memory # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: No memory What Have You […]

Weight: Scale reads 160, but that seems impossible Attire: Flowy black pants, pink hippie shirt, converse, black bra Resting Heart Rate: I don’t like you Food and Medicine Intake: Bagel, cliff bar, mango juice, chips, the best pizza and beer money can by, coke, a bit of candy, a bit of bourbon, 100mg spironolactone Dream: […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: Written on the day after, I honestly don’t remember Resting Heart Rate: Fuck this question Food and Medicine Intake: Starch plus dairy all day motherfucker, 100mg spironolactone Dream: My old apartment on Baltimore, trying to make it a good place to have a world cup viewing party for some reason # […]

Weight: 143 lbs Attire: Same as yesterday Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Bread and cheese and lemonade and mango and cheese curls and macaroni and crackers and peanut butter and 100mg spironolactone Dream: I’m inside a game of League of Legends, played live. I can turn invisible. Josh is directing it. […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Patched jeans, purple shirt, then costume. Resting Heart Rate: No stopwatch Food and Medicine Intake: Macaroni and cheese, peas, corn, milk, potato chips, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Oh, god, this one’s on the tip of my tongue. # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 1 # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 4 What […]

Weight: 141 lbs Attire: black dress and patterned tights, body jewelry, cowboy boots, red cardigan thing, green jacket Resting Heart Rate: Who the fuck knows Food and Medicine Intake: Spent the morning throwing up, so didn’t eat anything until late afternoon, when I ate way too much expensive pizza and beer, trying to write, and […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Those green pants again, also the backless shirt and the bra and the costume for some of it. Resting Heart Rate: Didn’t check Food and Medicine Intake: I didn’t write this today, but 3 days later, and I’ve totally forgotten. But definitely 100mg spironolactone, 40mg estrogen Dream: Also forgotten # of […]

Weight: No scale Attire: red converse, green pants, green jacket, ripped explosions in the sky tshirt, no bra today, seeing how it feels. Later, the costume Resting Heart Rate: No stopwatch Food and Medicine Intake: Apple, bread with peanut butter, pizza, root beer, pasta, banana, french fries, candy, 50mg spironolactone Dream: I remember them being […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Light green pants, backless black and white shirt, converse, black bra, green jacket. Later, a costume of red dress, black tights, black heels, wig Resting Heart Rate: No stopwatch Food and Medicine Intake: Popcorn, grilled cheese, fries, literally that’s it. 100mg spironolactone Dream: No memory # of Times Misgendered + Comments: […]

Weight: 151 lbs Attire: slutty ripped jeans (super slutty, I made them myself), black partially sheer tank top, black bra, green jacket, doc martens Resting Heart Rate: There is a much larger world than you know Food and Medicine Intake: popcorn, naked juice, those sesame things, fake chicken sandwich, clif bar, pizza, apple, 100mg spironolactone […]

Weight: 153 lbs Attire: green dress, cat leggings, red bra, cowboy boots, cord jacket Resting Heart Rate: Butts Food and Medicine Intake: Hot chocolate, cheese, crackers, bread, potato chips, leftover pasta, lemonade, 100mg spironolactone Dream: At Brown Ledge Camp. Me and Fae. We take a bus out of the camp into the town, taking me […]

Weight: 147 lbs Attire: Black slit dress, cowboy boots, patterned tights, black bra, gold chain Resting Heart Rate: 68bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Lots: bagel, rice and beans, pita and hummus, black bean burger with fries, ice cream, banana, mac and cheese, milk, lemonade, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 1, […]

Weight: Still apathetic Attire: Blue skirt, red converse, leggings, green jacket, a shirt, presumably? Resting Heart Rate: Still apathetic Food and Medicine Intake: Very little, some popcorn, some pasta, some nuts, but mostly nothing Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 2 # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 8 What Have You Done to […]

Weight: who gives a shit Attire: who gives a shit Resting Heart Rate: who gives a shit Food and Medicine Intake: who gives a shit Dream: who gives a shit # of Times Misgendered + Comments: who gives a shit # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 5 What Have You Done to Become Better Today? […]

Weight: 151 lbs Attire: pink sweatpants, black bra, black tshirt Resting Heart Rate: I don’t check Food and Medicine Intake: rice and beans and tortilla chips and some candy and 100mg spironolactone Dream: In a basement and an art gallery and a classroom and an auditorium. A whistling contest, a rehearsal where the rain was […]

Weight: WHO CARES Attire: WHO CARES Resting Heart Rate: WHO CARES Food and Medicine Intake: WHO CARES Dream: A number of small ones. I rehearse with Fae and Josh, Josh is mean to her, and she begins to cry. I reprimand him for not being a very good director, because I need her, and he’s […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: Ripped blue jeans, yellow and brown shirt, red bra, converse, black felt jacket. Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Cinnabon, because I’m the coolest, then macaroni, then apples, then other snacks. Not a good day for food. 50mg spironolactone, because I fell asleep on the couch. Dream: Forgotten […]

Weight: 142 lbs Attire: Multiple outfits: Started out in a black dress with patterned tights, changed into red haltertop and sweatpants, changed into cargo pants. Always black bra, green jacket, doc martens. Resting Heart Rate: Didn’t check Food and Medicine Intake: potato chips, cheese and bread and lemonade and tea, fried eggs, bananas, fries, beer, […]

Weight: No scale Attire: Purple patterned tights, black skirt, dark maroon velvet shirt, doc martens, black bra, green jacket Resting Heart Rate: Didn’t check Food and Medicine Intake: Pizza, root beer, macaroni, bread, pistachios, chocolate, 100mg spironolactone Dream: Slowly climbing a tower, we’re trespassing, but the rooms are inviting and warm and it’s the last […]

Weight: 146 lbs Attire: stripy shirt and pockety pants and other stuff also Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Pizza, potato chips, rice, cheese sandwhich, chocolate, 400mg ibuprofen, 100mg spironolactone Dream: I’m inside a movie. I’m on the moon, in the military, investigating the corpse of a massive alien. The spirit of […]

Weight: 148 lbs Attire: Patched blue jeans, doc martens, black bra, sheer blue shirt, black felt jacket. Resting Heart Rate: 72bpm Food and Medicine Intake: Muffib and donut and berry smoothie, ravioli, birch beer, pretzel, Oreo, some candy, 100mg spironolactone. Dream: I woke up with it in my head, wanting to write it down, but […]

Weight: 149 lbs Attire: green cargo pants, black tank top, black bra for part of the day (put it on partway through rehearsal), green jacket, converse Resting Heart Rate: 72 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: naked juice, nuts, crackers with peanut butter, hummus, tahini, isreali salad on pita with feta, root beer, beer, candy, 100 […]

Weight: 149 lbs Attire: green pants, brown flowy shirt, green jacket, black bra, red converse Resting Heart Rate: 76 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: hummus and tortilla chips and cheese and popcorn and apples and rice and cheese and 100mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 0 # of Suicidal Thoughts + […]

Weight: 149 lbs Attire: green skinny jeans, green pleather jacket, eits tshirt, black bra, docs Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: omelette, potatoes, cashews, candy, unfortunately. Skipped a lot of meals today. 100mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 2 # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 0 What Have […]

Weight: 147 lbs Attire: Same as yesterday Resting Heart Rate: Didn’t check Food and Medicine Intake: Muffin and donut, hummus and bread and fruit smoothie, cheese curls and cream soda, rice and cheese, cashews, easter candy, 50 mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten # of Times Misgendered + Comments: 2 # of Suicidal Thoughts + Comments: 0 […]

Weight: 145 lbs Attire: purple shirt, patched blue jeans, felt jacket, black bra, doc martens, black panties Resting Heart Rate: Something Food and Medicine Intake: Fake chicken sandwich with vegetables, pancakes, vanilla coke, cheetos, a couple of sips of a bunch of different alcohols. 50 mg spironolactone, because I spent the night at Swarthmore but […]

Weight: 146 lbs Attire: black and grey floral pattern skirt, black and white striped backless shirt, black bra, black leggings, black doc martens, green jacket Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: cheese sandwiches, bananas and peanuts and cashews and pizza and popcorn and cheesecake and 100mg spironolactone Dream: Forgotten # of Times […]

Weight: 146 lbs Attire: red ribbon shirt, black jeans, converse, black bra, black jacket Resting Heart Rate: 80 bpm Food and Medicine Intake: bagel with cream cheese, some junk food, some sandwiches with cheese and bread, sour candy, 100mg spironolactone Dream: I am hanging out with my sister Rose in our old house. I go […]