Pronoun today:
She/her
Thoughts on the last few days:
Grateful that I am alive and safe. Had two dates in the last two days, with people I met on OKC and Tinder. I’d never been on a date before (all my romances have evolved from friendships that started by accident, this is my first time trying to make romance intentionally). It was nice, but also kind of exhausting, but also enlivening. In both, I was in the position of being, when it came to decide whether to pursue something physically, the less anxious, sluttier person, saying, “I’m interested, take things at your own speed, but when you’re ready or interested, let me know.” I’m the one with the fewer sexual hang ups. This is weird. I’m unused to that. I want to go into more detail, into so much detail! But for the sake of privacy with people I barely know, I will say only that I’m very excited to see these people again. And that I just read one of their facebook statuses which mentions me and am squealing like a happy animal
Dream:
I’ve forgotten.
Have You Been Saved?
No